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I know how hard it was to wait to become pregnant again after the first one. I thought about getting pregnant again right away to try to replace the first baby. But I did manage to wait until I met the person that I wanted to be the father of my kids. And we didn't wait too long once I knew he was the one.
I feel the same way too, that I will somehow be punished for what I did and something will go wrong with this one. Plus, and I know this isn't as important as a healthy baby, but I've always wanted a boy. So of course my first was a perfectly healthy baby boy, with blue eyes and blond hair. Even though I and the biological father both have dark hair, eyes, and skin. So I just know that this one is a girl. Not that I won't love it anyway, but I know I will be disappointed, so we are not finding out ahead of time what it is. But deep inside, I know.
Nothing can ever replace the child I always wanted.
I'm so glad for you that it seems everything has worked out. I don't know if I will ever be talking to my parents again after I tell them about this or not. If they even respond with the slightest hint of negativity, I'll walk out the door and never look back.
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