[my3guats]

We too were in a process that was never ending...attorney that did not get things done in a timely way...documents requested over and over from embassy from El Salvador(probably attorney didn't get right ones..who knows), embassy quit giving DNA authorizations, PGN wanted documents from border that did not exist, embassy said they would do our DNA but then took over a month to accept papers at the window, embassy investigation, possibility of switching attorneys, etc...I too felt many many days that it would never happen and maybe wasn't meant to be..maybe we should give up...but then I kept thinking about how things had happened before we accepted our referral and we really felt God's calling to this little guy. Well 18 mths later he finally came home.

When he looks up at me with those big brown eyes and squeezes me tight in a bear hug...at night yells for many many kisses and hugs, "I need hugs and kisses Mama.." I know that every second of every long day of waiting was worth it. And people always say that pain and frustration fades...when I was in the middle of it all I could not believe it...but it is so true. I can remember feeling all of that pain and anguish but it no longer is taking over my heart as the love and joy this little boy brings has taken over my heart instead!

So no one can tell you what to do but I can tell you that no matter how long you wait when that child is home you will KNOW that every minute was worth it!

There is a wonderful song that I listened to many times each day while I waited...it made me cry each day but it also gave me hope...it is called "God Will Make a Way." I don't have the name of the singer right here but it is so perfect....

Also there is a story someone sent me(I will try to summarize it here)

"One day a friend came to take me shopping. I really didn't want to go but she convinced me. The whole time there I kept just wanting to leave and go home...I had so much to do. I kept saying let's just go now. She kept finding another reason to not go yet. Well when we got home there was a suprise birthday party waiting for me. It was such a joyful event. So when God says you must wait a bit longer remember that even though we don't always know why we must wait but many times it is because God has an even greater surprise in mind for us...."

So take a deep breath...think about the joy you will feel when your child is home...but don't concentrate on the specific when...