[roxanna425]

I guess the schools here are more secure since I only go to school the first day and after that I have been there a few times but I only see children after class and teachers.by appointment The kids that are not riding the bus are picked up by their mothers in the classroom after class. That way no one gets snatched. My kids go to a daycare before school for an hour and the daycare bus takes them to school and drops them off right in front. After school they go back to day care for about an hour then I am there. I have never seen teenagers an adults milling about the schools corridors. I try to teach my kids to be independent as I work and can't be there all the time. Furthermore they can sense fear and if you are afriad in a situation they will often fear it too. My kids have had enough fear. My mother worked when I was young as well.

I know you have a phobia about your kids getting to and from classes but might it not be better to let them practice something more independent in case you are sick one day or for whatever reason can't make the seperate trips there's a plan B? Did you write down a panic attack disorder when you applied to be a foster parent? If you did I am sure that if you tell the cw that this overwhelming situation is making you fear having a panic attack again I am sure she'll understand.

As for getting too many kids at once it's a lesson learned. Count yourself lucky that you have a cw that is understanding and respnsive to your needs and tell her that this is too much for you. What concerns me is that there may be a different standard of care for "your own" children and the foster kids in your care. We think kids don't notice these things and that it does not affect their self esteem but they do and it will affect them. Perhaps with only one foster child you could even out the standard of care and make it equal?