You have to do what is best for you. Step back and look at the situation for a minute. What can you do to make things easier? Would it really hurt your kids to ride the bus? (I know it hurts Mommy). How about finding somebody to car pool with so you don't have to go to the school so often -- I take it the 5 yr old is in kindergarten? Maybe you could find someone with just one child who would be willing to drive both of your children one way. That eliminates one trip anyway. Or, can your 8 yr old walk your 5 yr old to or from class? (Mine did). How about preschool for the 4 yr old during the time your 5 yr old is in school. Just think of how fast you'll lose that weight running around like this
. It sounds like you have one of the few good social workers, what is she willing to do to help out? Things should settle down too. I know it's not easy, and if you just can't do it, you can't do it. But you're probably scared and overwhelmed right now too. Think about it when all the kids are asleep. Good luck!