Well we got our first foster placement yesterday of three kids and I am afraid it is just more than I can handle. I thought I could tuff it out but the worker called today and said they could be here a year. I simply don't have enough hands. I have two of my own ages 5 and 8. The foster childrens are 11 months, 3 years and 4 years old. I need to loose about 70 pounds and I am sweating by the time I have crawled all over getting them buckled in their carseats. Plus I go to my kids school 3 times a day and it is a nightmare in the busy parking lot with that many kids. I have had to grab them by the shirt to keep them from crossing in front of a car. I am unwilling to bus my kids and I want to see them to their classroom. I hate to be a failure with my first placement but I KNOW I cannot handle this for long. I know I could handle 3 kids if they were older-like 5 and up or 1 younger one at a time. I feel bad that I found this out at the cost of these kids. I just feel like a failure. The worker today said they would rather their foster parents be honest if they feel they cant handle it and to just let her know and she was so nice and said they would still call me and not hold it against me. What should I do? Tough it out(probably bring on my panic attacks)or have them moved before they get to attached? Feeling so bad.............
