[nrj]

It's nice to know that there are people out there when you really need an honest opinion. My caseworker is understanding of any decision that I make, she agrees that she's been tough and has seen and heard her in action. She wants me to realize that the incidents she has origionally were on a weekly basis and they were not small things. She feels that I may not see the "improvement" in her even though it may not be quick enough to suit me. She says just the fact that it's been a month since the last big problem, tells me that they are getting fewer and farther between, and at least it's some improvement. Still when somethng hits me it blows me away because I feel that we're moving along ok, everythings fine, and here we go with another setback. Today I was in contact with my caseworker, who has been extremely supportive. She has gone overboard to help us. She is always there. We discussed respite and both agree that it would not be such a good idea at this point. It would more than likely take her out of her school and she would have that disruption to deal with. I have to either decide to do it or not. It was stated that she was mild emotional and my caseworker knows that she is moderate and, had I known that, I wouldn't have considered taking her. She is still on the web site as being mild emotional. I think after another fire setting, they "may" change that. I am very close to disrupting. It's something that I'm not looking forward to, but I need to for both of us. nrj