[nrj]

Thanks eveyone for your ideas and opinions. I have decided definetly on respite to give me some thinking time. After each incident with this child is over, she becomes that "perfect child". She starts cleaning her room, helping put and being just wonderful in general. She can control all of these problems, but she chooses not to. I never know what she's going to do or say next. I discussed everything with my caseworker. We both agreed on respite. I feel that I've given it over four months of total committment and I dont feel that we're getting anywhere. I dont have loving felings for her, I dont feel close to her yet either. What I feel is beaten down and just plain tired. We'll see what next week brings. Thanks again nrj