Hello rights and thank you for your welcome - unfortunately, it was too soon.
I am so sad right now. We have continually been turned down from one place to another, until we started dealing with the State. The State seemed to understand and be open to my age (20 - be 21 in 3 months) and to my husband's history - he is on probation till Nov. 2005; he has completely changed in the past 3 years; and it wasn't a violent crime or child related; and it was only once.
Anyhow, The state SW that I spoke to in July and again twice this month, has been ok with those two things. She has seemed so nice and excited FOR us. Then, I was referred to a new SW and when I spoke to him (about 10 minutes ago) - he told me that we have to wait to proceed until Nov. 2005 and that it is going to be really hard to "convince the big people up top" to let us foster/adopt.
I am so depressed right now, I just know that in Nov. when we call back there will be another problem (probably my weight will be next - I'm 280! *LOL*) and we'll be postponed longer. I just want to give up right now. But I can't. I love children. I love these children - these children that need us as much as we need to care for them - and I haven't met them yet.
We were buying another house, and selling ours this month (even though I already babyproofed this one - I even bought extra stuff to babyproof the next house with) - and now I think - what's the point? Do we really need that extra room? Not now. I might as well go back to work (I'm a SAHM to Lucas - 4 years - who is now in preschool); In short, I'm feeling that all is lost.
Be well all...and brightest wishes for you and your fchildren.
Ang