[bkp]

I feel very sad when I think about the way your birthmother treated you. Of course you did not deserve being the target of her horrible behavior. Of course you are innocent...nothing that happened in the past can affect who you are today unless you allow that to happen.

I agree that finding a therapist who is gentle and who can help you move through your feelings about this would be a good direction in which to move.

I don't know if this will help at all, but one thing I realize about people who were victims in their young lives......because of what happened to them, they will never be the person they would have been without the trauma.

What I fail to understand is why some people come out of abusive situations and want to protect others while others come out of it and seem unable to move beyond their own hurt and anger and only want to lash out at everyone.

I will keep you in my thoughts.