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I have to agree with the other posters. I sincerely doubt that you will find an adoption agency in this country willing to place another child with you right now. And, if you do, I would run from such an agency.
Children are not toys. You cannot send them back because you are jet-lagged and tired. You spent what 10-12 months on this adoption? You put your finances and your personal life on the line to adopt a baby. And then you got her home and dumped her. And, as someone said, I can't imagine an adoption agency letting you disrupt without trying to work with you, unless they feared you would do something like drop her off somewhere.
The pediatrician is right. You're very actions show you haven't got a clue what you want. You didn't disrupt because of unknown medical issues. You didn't disrupt for safely issues. You didn't disrupt because of major catastrophe in your life. You disrupted because you had a cold and wanted some sleep. And now a mere 6 months later you want another agency to put their reputation and the life of another child on the line because you want to try this again.
Long term, a disruption will not bar you from adopting. Though, I don't know if a disruption for petty reasons will or not. But short-term, you betcha it will stop another adoption. No one in their right mind would place another child a mere 6 months after you tossed the last healthy infant like a hot potato. And, I'm sorry if that sounds harsh. But, part of getting approved for adoption is to prove you are stable and able to parent. Right now, your very actions prove you are not stable and ready to parent. Perhaps you will be in a few years, and perhaps you won't. But, you're not ready now. And, no one is going to put the life of another child in the balance while you make up your minds again.
I would quit trying to adopt right now. I would take a lot more time to grieve, process and seek more counseling for what happened in your lives. And, in a few years if you still want to be a parent then try to adopt. But, right now pursuing another adoption is probably scaring the agencies even MORE. You disrupted for silly reasons and now you're back already seeking another child. That's not the actions of someone ready to take responsibility and deal with the consequences of what they did. No letter from your counselor is going to change that perception, only time, maturity and better preparedness in a few years will do that.
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