When I read your message and the replies of others I was shocked. I've been through a lot of these same issues with no clue about the reason why I was like that. I am nineteen. I have been through many relationships, never felt loved or accepted, always felt like people were staring at me, laughing at me, talking about me behind my back. I have a very low opinion of myself and have taken the opposite extreme you have. I have a two year old son and I placed my daughter up for adoption a month ago. This has been one of the most difficult times of my life and going through this with Kayli (my daughter) has caused me to start to wonder and search for my biological family. I'm not sure that I can offer you comfort other than to let you know that you are not alone. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to email me.
Dragonbaby8602@hotmail.com I hope that you find an answer.