Well, you might not feel ready to parent now, but you are truly blessed with support for you. As you become older, you will feel differently than you do now. You might really be glad you kept Courtney. Don't look at your daughter as someone who will hold you back in life. With your ambition you will be suprised where you will go even as a young mom. Your life is just taking a different turn than you'd expected but as an adult, it's is one of many times in your life things will happen that can detour your plans. Trust me, I NEVER thought I would be where I am today when I was 18! But I am and am so glad.
As for your boyfriend...it sounds like he has a lot of maturing to do still. His parents might have a strong influence on him still. The fact is, he made a baby girl with you and he needs to take some responsibility for her too. He says he loves you more than anything, but, if I may, It sounds like he loves your company. If he truly loves you, he will stand by you and his daughter. IMO, anything less than that, he is not worth it.
I didn't totally understand unconditional love until I met my son. It is so strong it brings me to tears at what a blessing he is in my life. IMO, if he wont except his own daughter to love, then I don't understand his love for you. I'm sorry, I hope I am not coming across insensitive. I think, if it is at all possible for you now, take much joy in your little girl. Wait until you meet her soon. I know you question if it's the best thing for you to keep her. Don't think short term though. Also, don't ever think of her holding you back. You don't own your next breath even, it is given to you by God so worrying about your future is not worth it right now. Enjoy the rest of your pregnancy the best you can. Your daughter is coming soon and it should be an exciting time
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Melissa