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For all it's worth, I'm neither an adoptee nor adoptive parent; however, I've been in your shoes as well. The only difference is that the reason behind my behavior is due to having being molested when I was younger.
I've never been comfortable having people, male or female, touch me. As I get older, it seems I loosen up a little more.
I still hate people looking at me for any amount of time. I seldom look people in the eye, because I feel they're lying to me. There are very people I trust, due to the hurt and pain I have endured in my lifetime.
I became a Christian about 2 years ago, and since then I've gotten engaged, which I thought would never happen...at least not for a while. (I just never let anyone get close enough to me or my heart to even want to understand me.) I had to tear down the walls of distrust, which I still have partially up.
It's tough and takes a while, but I feel you girl. You're not alone.
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