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miniblonde,
I can understand what you are saying. I too was adopted at birth. I also did some modeling in my younger days. I then worked for a booking agency. The truth of the matter is some people are staring at you. That is why you work. As you have probably noticed, it's not necessarily the most beautiful people who get a lot of modeling jobs, it's the ones that have something that make others want to look at them. It's an intangible thing.
It is uncomfortable to be stared at. I'm guessing that you are tall, slender and blonde? You are going to be the first thing lots of people notice. They will also assume all kinds of things about you, good or bad, true or not. This can make it hard to deal with people on a personal basis. Many girls have the same problems you do. What I'm saying is, it's probably not all your fault. This is something that isn't mentioned alot in polite conversation, but as you go through life, you will find your looks have much to do with the way you are treated. This has advantages and disadvantages.
How the adoption issue works into this, I don't know. Have you tried only one therapist? There is a saying that therapists and therapy are like shoes, you have to find one that fits. If there is an adoptee support group in your area, you might try to contact them for a recomendation to a therapist that has some experience with adoptees. I'd say that it's just a matter of becoming comfortable in your own skin. Sixteen is very hard. It will get easier.
LewEllen
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