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Opps i guess i made a typo.. my boyfriend is 17, and I'm now 15 for anyone who thinks im 14 lol..
No matter how much partying, traveling, having fun, I can picture me doing in the future.. it just doesnt appeal to me. its not what i want.. what i want is a baby. My boyfriends mom just had a baby and I love going there but at the same time HATE going there because i see her with the baby and i take care of the baby but then always have to give him back! it just makes me cry and angry!
i have one of those btio dolls that they use in schools.. i payed 520 for her and she is my "baby" but shes just not real enough. and i know what youre going to say "theyre nothing like real babies blah blah.." i know that.. im not trying to prove that i can take care of a baby, that i know i can do.. im just prooving that nothing (babysitting, my btio, spending weeks with my aunt and baby cousin) is good enough or satifies my urge!
i dont know what to do anymore..
my parents love me, my life is perfect, i get very good grades, have a great boyfriend and lots of friends so i dont want a baby for anything other then i feel that now is the right time to bring anothr life into the world..
-Elle
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