[Sarah0518]

We married relatively young also. I was 22 and still had a year to go in college. Lloyd was 25. He lost his job the same month I graduated college. We decided he hadn't been happy in that job anyway, so he started college part time. (It was all we could afford.) I know it was for the best because we are both very happy with where we are now in our jobs and life, but I do regret how long it caused us to wait on starting a family.

We'll be married 12 years next month. We spent a 1-1/2 years trying to biologically have a family, and a 1-1/2 years so far trying to adopt.

Can't really answer the question on how a baby will change things yet. I know it will be a big adjustment after being just the two of us for so long, but oh how I want that change!!!

Today is my birthday and it is so depressing. Another year gone by without being a parent. Everyone wants to know what I want for my birthday, and the only thing I truly want is the one thing they can't give me.

Sorry to be such a sad sack. I know my time will come. Some times it's just hard in the meantime.