[rbjay]

Today, a beautiful little girl turns 15. I am wondering is she having fun? I am a birthmother that is struggling every year on this day. I am just a mess wondering "DOes she have a boyfriend?" "Will she have a cool birthday party?" Is her hair still red? Or is she like me and had it all different colors? Oh god, this is so hard. I didn't have a outlet until this site other than my wonderful husband. I would love any kind of help or thoughts from other birthmothers or Adoptee kiddoes that might like to write me. I am open to any questions on why I made that decision. I just need to know where to go from here. This was a closed adoption and I know that I have to wait another 3 years to start the reunion. I do have other children now. They know about her and are very excited to meet their"Big SIS" Can I let them call her that.... I am so lost. I hope I can hear from anyone that even just wants to visit. Thank you so much for this site. e-mail or anything. Like I said I am new to this so, bear with me...

Thank You,
Robyn