Thank you for clarifying. I understand where you are coming from. I think I'm in defensive mode and you identified it very well with your example of how you felt when they were questioning your ability. I think that's where I'm at.
I might be a dreamer right now, but I guess that's all part of the process. I just want a chance without being squashed before I've even tried.
What I am most upset about is the fact that none of this was brought up or discussed anywhere along the line until now. And I don't know how to answer the caseworker anymore. They don't want "bleeding hearts" but I really do care so much for the older kids. I just don't want "another kid" I want to be the difference in someone's life. But that's the wrong answer to their questions of our intentions too.
Maybe I should just relax and get away from it for a while?
I'm sorry if I had a offensive knee-jerk reaction; tensions are high right now.
Thank you for sharing your experiences.
