So...here it is, I talked to my bmom yesterday. I was so tired of sitting around waiting on that email with her contact info from the adoption agency, so I drove from Katy, Texas to The Woodlands, Texas in the pouring down rain. Crazy rain too. Not to mention Houston traffic. (Do you feel the drama?) I wanted to go shopping w/my cousin's wife to keep my mind busy.
So...I'm sitting in line on the Hardy Toll Rd. to pay my $1.25 & I noticed my cell was ringing plus it had another call I didn't hear. I was listening to the radio really loud.
It was my husband. He was so excited. I knew he was about to tell me I received the email. He was about to go to work in a few hours, so that is why he wasn't with me. He told me all her contact info. I was in shock. I finally knew her last name & where she was. I felt like I was going to faint. My poor husband was so worried about me. He kept telling me that I should just pull off the tollway & relax...AND call my bmom. I didn't wanna talk to her in my car. I knew I'd freak out. I knew myself enough to know I'd want someone sitting right beside me. I am a big baby.
I had to let him go, b/c I was about to pay & get back into traffic. I called him 30 minutes later when I made it to my cousins. He told me her contact info again so I could write it down.
I waited a few minutes and called her. It was sooooo surreal. I can't explain it at all. I really felt like I was in complete shock.
Later at the mall my lil brother called me. He was so sweet! I can't wait to meet all of them. We talked on the phone several times later throughout the evening & into the morning. Then, we talked online for a few minutes. He sent me a pic of him & his girlfriend. He is so cute! (I was an only child.)
OMG! I did have an anxiety attack after I got off the phone w/my bmom for the first time. I was so nervous & it just kinda happen.
Well, I'm supposed to call my bmom in one hour. She told me last night to call her today @ a certain time.
My hubby & I leave for Colorado in a few short days! I'm so nervous yall. It's in like 8 or 9 days from today.
I do think that I am still in shock. My bmom is very nice & I'm excited to finally meet her, but I'm adapting to everything very slowly, so i dunno what I'm actually feeling. Does this makes any sense to other reunited triad memebers?