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...not born yet in the seventies... I'm ooooooooold!
I went back to college in January. I work full-time for a company that pays for it, which is the only reason I'm able to do it. I feel extraordinarily guilty every Tuesday and Thursday night as I'm in class -- the poor little tyke is in day care 5 days a week and then I bail on her two nights a week. My dh is a GREAT Daddy and more than able to take care of things -- in fact, she tends to prefer her Daddy to everyone else -- but it breaks my heart to be apart from her.
I try to remind myself that I'm doing this for her -- I want to finish my degree and do work I really love, not just push papers for a living. How can I teach her to reach her full potential if I'm not living up to mine?
Last night I went out for dinner and a movie with "the girls" -- that means one extra night gone! I felt awful and almost didn't go, but I forced myself, and I'm glad... I needed a night like that!
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"Do not put your faith in a cape and a hood
They will not protect you the way that they should
And take extra care with strangers
Even flowers have their dangers
And though scary is exciting, nice is different than good.
.... Isn't it nice to know a lot? And a little bit... not.
--Stephen Sondheim
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