I dont really even know where to start here. I have gone thru the homestudy and have been approved to adopt a child. I have to say one thing I think its so wrong that adopting a child comes down to money. Im not rich by no means but im not poor either I can provide a good home for a child. Whatever happened to love? I understand a child needs to be provided for but the main thing that child needs is love! Now we are going thru whats called kidspeace where the agency pays for most of the adoption, the children have special needs which ya know what to me it doesnt matter I will love that child regardless. I was kinda hoping for a newborn or a little one but as it looks it will be an older child, which is ok to I just wanna be a mom so bad. I long to hear a child say those words to me "mommy".
My husband and I never got pregnant for 13 years so we just assumed we would never have children. Well in January of 2002 I became pregnant which floored me because we had been together so long and it never happened. It wasnt until that very time that I knew I wanted to be a mother, I lost the baby in February and was so devestated. It wasnt until I lost that baby did I realize how bad I wanted to be a mom. Thats when we decided to go through the adoption agency. We had been approved back in September of 2003 when I became pregnant again, this time I was just going into my 4th month or pregnancy when I again lost another baby. Well I came to the realization that Im not gonna give up if god wants me to have a baby it will one day happen, meanwhile Im still going to go through with the adoption, if I get pregnant it will be another child for our family.
I will love them both the same and treat them no different.
Ya see Ive learned no matter what happens in this life, I was meant to be a mother and one day that will happen for me.
I think any mother who could give their child up is such a sacrafice not just for that child but for that adoptive mother, what a gift.
Regardless of what anyone does and decides it is your choice to do and only you can make it.
I would like to share my website with everyone I will be redoing it to add my son Jacob Lee that I just lost that I will be adding to it but this site I did for my child
http://www.geocities.com/ForeverPrec...ousAlyssa.html
Its just what my child means to me
My only advice that I can give to a mother thinking about giving a child up for adoption is to think everything through before you do it and you pick where your child goes and feel comfortable with that choice. As I said only you can make it.
MommytoAlyssa