[Dawnzlight]

WEll, shoot... another attempt, another time of turning our lives upsided down, trying to do right by this young man that we love so.

After a major tantrum, which escalated into a rage, this 18 1/2 yr old 'ran away'.. ::: smiles wryly:::: After about 6 hours, we got calls from several people that he was calling them to say we kicked him out, barefooted and jacketless. Not true to the first 3, and the jacketless part was his choice when he flew out the door in his fit.

Worse.. we were told that he was telling people that I sexually abused him.

Now, I know all about transference, and all the psycho babble that goes with it... I understand.. I know...I know.. I know.

But that was one of the most hurtful things he could have ever said. And potentially very damaging outside of 'hurting my feelings'...

He is no longer welcome to live in my home. I just cannot put myself in the dangerous positions that he ultimately produces.

I am sorry if this doesnt seem like a happy ending... and I know its far from the end, but this is the phase we are in and I as an adoptive mother am heartbroken.. I feel like I have wasted 10 year of love, time, counselors, programs, churches, family, and finances.

I will heal, and I will move on..and do I hope that others don't walk the path that I have? sure do..but it appears more and more that I am not so alone in this type of drama.

Thanks for all the responses...

Dawn