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I went through the fertility treatments and am currently going through it again. (We have military insurance and have to see a specific DR He went straight to the injectables. I got pregnant with my son on clomid and my first IUI. I think this Dr skips clomid due to $ very expensive for the military. When I have an IUI I have to pay for the meds which can be as high as $3000 and $300 for the meds) We had my son (it will be 4 yrs on the 25th) It was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. I had wanted him for so very long and my pregnancy was wonderful. No morning sickness. During the 8th month I felt like an alien was living in me all the movement made me a little nuisious (sp) but it was a reasurrance he was alive. I went my whole pregnancy parinoid something was going to happen. In the end he was wedged on my pelvis and wouldnt decend so I never effaced or dialated. C-section. I highly recommend it. No pain. Spinal tap is scary. And feeling coming back into your limbs while they are sewing you up makes you nervous. And taking that first step the next day was painful.
All in all I remember his tiny face and thought what a beautiful perfect thing I had produced. I had told my father My Son was the best feeling in the world. I for the first time felt a never ending love.
Yes we are doing fertility treatment but we are also starting the adoption process. My husband would like to have 6-10 kids. I told him I am in my 30 one more may happen. We had discussed adoption before my son. I jumped in hole heartedly. I love kids and I think they all deserve love and stability and a chance to be a kid and to grow as an individual. I also have a strong belief that It is a cruel world to bring children into and we should help those on earth have a better life.
All in all it is your decision. I look forward to adopting children as much as I look forward to being pregnant.
My dream is to own a ranch have a ton of kids and to adopt as long as my husband and I are capable of raising kids.
Dont let yourself feel bad are think yourself bad for not wanting a birthchild. Remember God has a purpose and a plan for everyone. Yours may be for a child that is in need of a forever family.
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