Hi Tina,
I so remember those really dark months after my son was born and placed. Know there are others who have been through the same thing. Having lost your father too must make losing your child all the more difficult. Loss upon loss.
What area of the country are you in? Maybe I can find a support group you can attend as well. Did you place through an agency? You can e-mail me privately if you like. My address is
brenr@openadoptioninsight.org.