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devastated
Stephanie,
I went through a couple of situations that did not work out before I adopted my son. Both of them were around Thanksgiving and Christmas.
Needless to say, I did a lot of crying and rented a lot of movies to get through the holidays. One was a fake situation with a facilitator just making up info to string aparents along. (Restitution of fees has been made and she finished her prison term earlier this year.) In the other situation, the potential bmom was real, but she never intended to place (did not find out until she was due).
At that point, I seriously considered pulling out of the adoption journey. I felt that I needed to continue the journey, because I had so much invested in the process. I realized that I did not have to have a child by the holidays or on Mother's Day. Whenever I became a mother, any day would be Mother's Day and/or Christmas. As I continued searching for other possible situations, I developed a more balanced perspective and learned not to "put all of my eggs in one basket".
I received a lot of on-line support and stayed in contact with other adopting parents. I hope this helps you to know that others understand your feelings because lots of us have been there. My heart goes out to you. I hope this helps.
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