I am so sorry, I know it must be so hard to care for those babies and then have to let them go. We just got licensed for our states foster/adopt program. It seems that in our state a high number do end up being legally free, after a long wait. The kids here are ususually in the "fast track" program for a reason, of course the state's first goal is always reunification. My friend was able to adopt her twins after 18 months as was another friend. But no matter what the statistics, when it happens to you (losing one) who cares about the numbers. I do feel for your situation because like us, you probably do this program because it is where the younger children are available. We actually were going to do a straight adoption with a toddler, but were incredibly misinformed about her situation, so it did not work out, and it was an emotional rollercoaster. I am trying to go into the legal risk program with the frame of mind that we are fostering, and we can help give a little child a good start. In the eventuallity that we are able to adopt them, that would be wonderful. I will just plan on that it may be a few babies before we get to keep them. But I know this is easier said then done, of course you fall in love with them! What a wonderful thing you have done for those 3 babies though, what a gift you have given them. I hope that in the future it will work out for you to get to keep one forever! Don't give up, there are so many children who desperately need you! Happy Holidays
