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A Letter to my Birthmother
Dear birthmother -
I know you haven't forgetten me! I know that you often stop and think of me, and that sometimes you wonder what I look like now, or what I'm doing. I am writing to tell you that I wonder those same things, too!
I recently recieved some non-identifying information from the adoption agency and the hospital. It felt AMAZING to see my hospital records, especially my little footprints and your fingerprint. It was so interesting to read what the adoption agency sent, too - I felt a little less empty, as well as a lot of other things, too! I cried when I looked in my mailbox and realized that the information was here - that it was finally mine, and I could finally know SOMETHING.
The truth is, birthmother, I have an unquenchable desire to KNOW you, inside and out. I want to meet you, and hear your voice, and give you a hug, and thank you for choosing to give me life. I want to see what you look like - I wonder if I look a lot like you, or if I look a lot like SOMEBODY. I want to meet my biological siblings, if I have any at all - I'm an only child, and I can only wonder what it'd be like to have a brother or a sister. I want to know if you ever told my birthfather that he has a daughter - and if you did, I want to know if he wants to meet me, too. I wonder if you like to sing, like I do, or if you ever had any pets - I never did, and I always wanted a dog! I wonder if you have ever had any medical problems, and if you ever got married. I want to know what the best day of your entire life was...I want to know everything. I hope you feel the same way, too.
I don't know how to find you, birthmother, and that's the only problem. It would be certaintly be much easier if you were looking for me too, and we found eachother, wouldn't it? Maybe sometime we'll get to meet, and talk, and answer eachother's questions.
Love,
Your Daughter
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If we cannot find happiness within ourselves, it does not make much sense to look outwards - Anonymous
PEACE: it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart - Unknown
Never, never, never, never give up - Winston Churchill
Baby girl born 7/25/1984 in Upstate NY.
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