I am not sure what I think is better..
Finding out too much? Or not finding out what
you needed to!
There are so many unanswered questions that I have.
I will never know the answers..
and then,,
There is so much information that I have found out!
Both my B-Parents have passed away...
I will never know their guilt!
I will never know how much they thought about me..
I will never know when they thought about me..
I will never know their dreams for me..
I will never know their tears for me..
Do I really want to know this?
Yes..
Is it important now?
No..
I cannot change time... Only change the future
with my new B-family..
Life is hard..
I am so grateful that I know what I know..
A little over a year ago..
I was just like every adoptee that wants to know more..
Today - I know more...
And dont like what I find out...
I never thought I would have the choice to feel the
way I do...
Hang on...
And be you!! be me...
S