[Dixie229]

So, today is my daughter's birthday. She's 20 years old now... a whole 2 decades! It's hard for me to believe it's been that long!
For so many years now I've thought of her birthday as a loss... not only because I lost her, but because I also lost my "self". I was only 17 at the time and didn't have a clue about the real world. I learned quick...
Anyway, I had an epiphany the other day. Why do I mourn her loss? Why not celebrate her birthday for what it is? ... the life of a precious child? ... and now the life of a young woman?
I've decided to bake a cake in her honor. I'm not the "domesticated" type so baking/cooking is new to me, but I want to celebrate her life. I want her to know she is remembered. I want her to know that she is free to live her life as she wants to.
I have hope that one day she will contact me. Then I'll have a chance to tell her everything that I didn't have a chance to do so long ago.
My daughter is alive. She is real. She is mine.