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Same.
I feel the same way you do and my situation is much the same. Minus the parents showing affection and me pulling away. It's funny. I want affection but as soon as someone gives it to me I feel uncomfortable and want to run away. It's weird, I know this may seem to be getting a little personal. I grew up being the girl who wanted guys attention because I never got it at home, period. I got the wrong attention though from them and ended up always getting hurt. They all seemed to say I was a little too attached to them. I am starting to believe that I think I liked the fact that they never seemed to give me any attention back, that that was how it was supposed to be. In a twisted way, I liked it. Now that I have a boyfriend who by everyone's comments is "crazy" about me, I feel uncomfortable. I never liked public display of affection and I never talk about feelings or anything remotely close to my adoptive parents. My boyfriend will often do affectionate things like trying to hold my hand or whispering "I love you" in front of them and it's so hard for me to say the same thing back in front of them. I don't know what it is. I feel like I am a very deep person and have a lot of insight on the world, I am just really confused.
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