This was my letter to my bmom - just found her not too long ago.
Dear Vonna,
I would like to start by introducing myself: I am Pamela Green, 28 years old, from Westchester, NY. I was born on September 5, 1980 in Houston Texas by a woman named Vonna Sears. The adoption agency/lawyer involved was Leslie Thacker. I have just started my active search to find my birth mother and have been fortunate to have had some help finding possible matches using resources from adoption.com. With that said…..
I have wanted to write to you for a very long time, but, due to a loss for words, it has taken me until now to finally do so. I have spent countless night lying in bed asking myself how I was supposed to write a letter to a women whom I have never met before, but who is, at the same time, far from a stranger.
My main purpose for writing this is to thank you. Twenty-eight years ago you did perhaps the most selfless and beautiful thing I could ever imagine, you gave me a second chance to be part of a family.
You should rest assure that there is no better family with whom you could have placed me. The Greens have loved, protected, nurtured, guided me, and have done everything imaginable to assure my wellbeing and happiness. They have always encouraged me to be the best that I can be in all that I do.
I have always known I was adopted, and for as long as I’ve known I’ve wondered about you…who you are where you live, what you’re like, if I look like you, and all the other questions which inevitably pass through an adoptee’s mind. As I grew I not only came to better understand the meaning of adoption, but to be able to appreciate the absolute beauty of it. My adoption, has played a very large roll in my life and has come to mold me into who I am today. It has shaped me in more ways than anyone can imagine. I believe that in some ways my being adopted has made me a better person. I appreciate life and everything in it, I accept the good with the bad, and want nothing more than to give something back for all the chances I’ve been given. I have been truly blessed because of your decision.
I apologize as deeply as it is possible, if this letter has come as a shock, or if it has caused you or your family pain in anyway. That was not my intent. I wanted only to thank you for everything and to let you know that I am thinking of you as I have often over these past twenty-eight years. Most importantly you need to know how very much I admire you for all that you have done. Strong enough words do not exist to properly describe my gratitude. You gave me a second chance at life, and for that I respect you more deeply than you will ever know. I hope someday to be able to thank you in person, and be able to meet your husband and beautiful children, but until that day the best that I can do is to write it. Thank you for everything!
I understand that you may not be in a place were you are ready to correspond and that such a time may in fact never come, but you should know that if that is the case that the doors will always remain open if you ever change your mind.
If there is a chance that you would like to respond back to me, my e-mail address is
madison9580@hotmail.com If you would be so kind, if you are not the right person, could you possibly e-mail me back to let me know, as this is the beginning on my search and I would like to continue my pursuit to finding “my” Vonna Sears.
Sincerely,
Pamela Green-Knowles