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Hey Jason, first of all you should not be feeling bad about how your family is reacting to all of this. No matter how hard it is on them it's always going to be harder on you and if they are trying to make you feel guilty because you aren't choosing what they want then they don't understand this decision at all. If you and your girlfriend choose based on what your parents tell you to do you will ultimately regret it. Secondly, if the birthparents are from this moment not agreeing to the terms that you want you need to ask yourself what is more important to you. Is it more important that your child have this supportive family or is it more important that the adoptive family follows what you would like to happen. Also if you decide that your terms are more important and you choose to adopt to another family keep in mind that the family will likely come to a point where they will stop caring about your terms and stop following the "open adoption" rules they originally set with you. Ultimately if you're not ready to parent I believe adoption is the best of the decisions although that doesn't mean it's an easy one. Honestly it sucks. It sucks worse than anything you will ever go through. I think the reason it sucks so much is because ultimately choosing adoption is choosing to be a parent. What I mean by that is that when parents become parents they are choosing to put this child before themselves in everything they do. When you choose adoption you are choosing to put the child's well being before your own emotions. It's the most difficult thing in the world and you need to be ready for it if it's the decision for you.
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