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I feel awful that I haven't posted in two months, but my life has been crazy. Dominic will be three months next week, and I just returned back to work yesterday. I've been struggling with leaving him to come to work. I have a strong sense of "no one can take care of him as good as I can". But I enjoyed my 11 weeks of alone time with him.

I tried to catch up on the threads, but Congrats to Mom2Max.....CrystalP-I hope you are finding peace in your decision and I hope you are enjoying your family.

I know it doesn't help when you are waiting.......but it is all very worth it in the end. AFter years of infertility treatment, watching my 3 babies die after being born premature, and the adoption wait.....it is all worth it. I can already barely remember how painful the wait was. It happens when you least expect it, and be prepared b/c it can happen quick leaving you little time to prepare. I was one of those people who had the nursery ready and some neutral clothes and all that, and I am glad, b/c I really only had 2 days to prepare, and we didn't know if it was a girl or boy until he was born. Or wait for the adoption ended up being almost 11 months after our homestudy was approved. Our agency projected that it would take 6months to 3 years. and the hardest part was after I was matched and waiting for the baby to be born to see if the birthmother was going to change her mind. I actually got so stressed over that part that I gave myself shingles.

The other hard part has been the attorney and legal fees. They ended up being thousands of dollars more than was projected.

I wish everyone baby dust!!!! Hang in there.....and if anyone has any questions I would be happy to answer them. I'll try to post a new picture soon.....I'm not good at figuring out how to do that.