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Bkaugust,
I would agree it is probably time to consider searching. It pained me greatly to see so much anger in your letter, I'm sorry you are hurting so badly. There are some people never meant to be parents, but just because a couple is "biologically defective" and cannot create life doesn't mean that in their hearts or souls that they shouldn't be parents. It sounds like you got a lousy deal. My parents were not able to create me, but they raised, nurtured and loved me more than anyone ever could have asked. They absolutely deserved parenthood and they are respected and loved deeply by me. Perhaps a counselor could help you work through the anger. There are plently of folks out there who think that money can buy anything, and that would include a baby, but obviously if they are not nurturing or loving, what good are material things? May I please ask you what religion you spoke of? You know there are zealots in every religion, those certain people that turn others off immediately with their overbearing ways. I hope that won't cause you to close the door on a future relationship with a God/Religion of your choosing. There is comfort sometimes to be found in faith. I also noticed you specified an upwardly mobile "white" couple. Is there some significance there? There is goodness that exists in every race and evil that exists in every race. It's best to judge people by how they conduct their affairs and their morals rather by skin color. Skin color doesn't say anything a person, it's what is underneath that leaves the impressions. I wish you all the best and hope you find the peace that you are so desperately seeking.
Kitty
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