Oh, the dreaded visit day! We actually have one tomorrow...the first one in three months!
They have been worse for me, since I found out that I would be adopting D. My mama bear in me just wants to protect her from the person who did those horrible things to her! (Our case was fast-tracked to adoption after she had been RU for 8 weeks and new charges happened...When I was called to take her back, I was asked if I would adopt her in the same sentence!) I hate having to look in that face and tell her that she is staying forever, but she still needs to go see “Mama N”.
The reason I dread visit day the most is the fact that I know what D will be like afterwards. The last two visits she had, she had nightly nightmares FOR WEEKS! With this visit, I know it is going to mark the end of my summer. I will be spending the next month helping her get over the visit.
(please don’t bash me) But it makes me sick that MY CHILD has to suffer, just because “Mama N” wants to play parent for an hour.
But in our case, there is NO chance at RU now. The surrender papers were signed 2 months ago. The court house our case is in allows the visits to continue until the adoption is FINALIZED. She is allowed one, one hour visit a month. The workers are telling me that they are trying to make this the last visit before the adoption, but I know that won’t happen. It all depends on if “Mama N” keeps calling.