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Ryan,
I can see where you both are coming from. I had a baby last summer when I was 20. I'm also a college student. From the beginning of my pregnancy I said I was going to put her up for adoption, because like you, I have always wanted my children to have a better life than what my parents gave me. And just like your parents, mine are both college graduates.. and both have 2 Masters. So I completely understand where you stand.
I also see where your girlfriend stands. My intention was to give my daughter up.. until I gave birth to her.. when it came down to it I changed my mind. Giving a child up is probably the scariest and most heartbreaking thing someone could do. Its not easy on anyone. Im not saying your gf's feelings are worth more than yours.. but over the months, she has probably became attached to the baby. I know I did. Every time I felt her kick, I questioned if I was going the right thing. My daughter was put into a foster home for the first 2 weeks of her life because my parents and myself felt the need to make sure that I REALLY wanted to become a parent.
Currently, my daughter is 11 months old. She will be one in July. I am still in school and maintained a 3.4 gpa this past year. And for the record, I'm a single mom.. although my parents are amazing and are helping me. I know you question what is right and what is wrong for you, your gf, and your child.. and by no means am I trying to make you lean a certain way, but it is POSSIBLE to raise this baby and continue with school and give your child a wonderful life. Sure, things will be a little more difficult while you finish up school and such, but in the end, its worth it. Soo incredibly worth it.
A child wants love. A child is not bought into this world saying "i want this or I want that".. a child only wants to be loved. They dont want fancy cars or designer clothes or any material possessions. If, in fact, you decide to help parent this baby, I can guarantee when it comes down to it, that baby will be more than happy to have his/her dad around.. their biological dad. You can do it. You and your girlfriend can do it.. if that is what you choose.
I wish you the best of luck on your journey. And please, feel free to PM me if you need to talk. Believe me, this time last year, I was questioning the same things you were.
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