[LasVegasMom]

Do I exist? Yes. Being from the closed era, I felt that I never ever existed to my son. Boy was I wrong. My son's aparents were reminded of me every single day because my son longed for both of his mothers. He has two moms, two dads, and I try to keep the "real" or "first" or "natural" or whatever out of the equation. It is not fair to his mom who raised him for me to act like I take precedence or something. I am grateful he calls me mom, mother, even mommy sometimes even though he's 28! It is special to me. However I have noticed that he refers to me as "Tracy" when he talks to his mom but refers to his mom as "mom" when talking to me-some unresolved issues there for sure.
What do I want to world to know about me as a birthmother? That I love my son, have always loved my son, would jump in front of a truck for him, that I made a lifechanging decision for both of us at a young age that was the hardest thing I could ever do, that I never ever forgot him, that I thank God every day he found me again. That I love his family, his mother and father and sisters because they made him who he is today, that I love his mother because she did the job I could not do, which was raise my son. The labels don't bother me anymore, as long as I have HIM in my life, as long as my family is complete again, as my grandmother used to say, it will all come out in the wash!