[kakuehl]

Hi Janey and Peachy,

For many years I controlled who I told about D. Since Reunion it's not been as easy! I don't necessarily tell the whole story(!) when I say I have 3 children but I try to be as open as possible so that I am being true to D and his parents. I must admit I get nervous about how people are going to respond ("Christians" can be very judgmental... unfortunately!) and to a certain extent, my call (job) depends on others perceptions of me. Of course, that is the very reason I won't hide anymore. I firmly know myself to be a forgiven child of God, and I have come to terms with who I am and the consequences of my actions. (Ok -Janey, there are holes in that but not about D!)

As a Christian I am called to forgive as I have been forgiven.. to love as I have been loved. When I feel attacked as a bmom, I try to "consider the source" to see what the other person is dealing with. I will sometimes engage in the dialog and sometimes just walk away, depending on how I am feeling. (If for some reason I'm feeling vulnerable that day, I will walk away,for my own sanity.)