[Daveb2]

Originally Posted by Daveb2

I have never been one to read poetry and certainly not one to write such a thing but this just sort of happened.
Apologies to any poets among you but it has made me feel better. As i was not informed until after the funeral i am finding this pretty hard to deal with.


Tonight i lie here so restless
Not wishing to face a new day
God in his infinite wisdom
Has taken my Mother away

Her ashes have been scattered
Off Californias coast in the sea
God has taken my Mother
The grief he has here left with me

Up for adoption she had put me
More than sixty three years ago
Then swore the family to a secret
That nobody ever should know

That unwanted child was lucky
And with a new family blessed
Til one day the secret came out
My insides turned to emptyness

Who was this woman who gave me
To a Devonshire man and his wife
She had not wisdom enough to see
That you can't live another man's life

All through my youth i was troubled
Reasons though no one could find
I of course knew the answer
You can't break the ties that bind

For thirty nine years i ignored it
I tried living that other mans life
Then i decided i would find her
And make an end to internal strife

I searched and looked and found her
In California not too far from the sea
But she closed the family round her
And refused to acknowledge me

I guess i really should hate her
But that can just never be
For though i'm not a Son to her
She will always be Mother to me

A person has rights bestowed,
Granted on the day they are born
I was by others was denied mine
The right at her funeral to mourn

To those who know not of me
In truth there is not much you missed
You most likely wouldn't care about me
Then why do some on the secret insist

Today to my Dear Mother I say,
Your funeral it greived me so to miss
You know now how much i loved you
Please accept this as my goodbye kiss.

D J Butler
For My Mother
Joan Cicley Ritchie
13th March 1920 - 29th January 2009

Hope this works