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It's not that I can't go into different rooms. It's that she seems to find me wherever I am and then won't respond when I say something to her when I see her. I usually leave the room when she doesn't respond.
I usually go into the games late at night because that's when my mom is down for the night and I don't have to get intrupted and can just relax.
I've known my daughter for 12 years now and she shouldn't have these childish "don't want to talk to you now" kind of attitudes. If she doesn't want me in her life fine but she yo-yo's it. She's either all there because she wants something or ignores me.
She'll tell me how much she loves me and how sorry she is for her ignoring me and then suddenly she's back to the same old crap and I get really tired of it. REALLY tired of it.
I wish she'd either say, "YES I want you in my life and I love you." and then stay in it or tell me to get the hell out of her life for the rest of her life.
This yo-yo stuff drives me out of my mind. The minute I get used to not having her talking to me and not having her in my life because she ignores me and doesn't want me around, and I'm really OK with it, there she is again telling me she's sorry and how much she wants me around.
I get REALLY tired of it. So tired of it because I can't depend on her. I can't depend on a mature person doing mature things like being honest with what she wants from me and what she expects from me. She gets my emotions so wound up I can't function. It's not right. But nothing I can do about it.
If I didn't need to play games or do something onine to relax after a day of dealing with my mother I wouldn't bother but it helps me relax so I can just not think about anything but winning a game. I know that's stupid but it helps. It really does. It just upsets me when I see my daughter come into the room I'm in just so she can ignore me. You know?
Rylee
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