Okay so I went to the jewelry show at her house and it was a really good experience/visit for us
. Hubby went with me cause he really wanted to meet them and wants to be involved and is very supportive of it all too.
If I had to sum it up in one word...I'd say it was 'wild', I guess...cause it was good, but it was also a little weird, but mostly just different and not what I expected while being what I expected at the same time, if any of that makes any sense lol
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The thing I keep saying when I talk to family/friends about it...is that the weirdest thing about it all...is that it wasn't that weird at all. It was the weirdest thing because it was so normal and natural to me - being there with Hubby and all of us and the way we interacted.
It felt like I was coming home...to another part of my family...I just felt like I fit right in and that Hubby fit in as well too. It was just really great and we had a lot of fun talking and hanging out etc. for 2 hours or so and then talked about our plans to go out for lunch too and what not.
There was a few minutes I kinda freaked out and felt sorta like I couldn't breathe so well though. It was when we'd been there for a little bit and my 4 1/2 yr. old's mom was like oh I better go get her from the neighbors and she left to go get her and Hubby and I were sitting there going uh what do we do? We were like should we stay or not cause we weren't sure if we should be there when my 4 1/2 yr old was going to show up back with her mom...but we didn't want to leave without saying bye etc. to her mom...so we waited for a few min and then the door opened and I slowly turned to look as my 4 1/2 yr old's mom comes walking back in (I was reminding myself to breathe lol).
Anyway, she walks back in and is all well, I went to get her and she was sitting watching "Beauty and the Beast" and eating a popsicle and she was like why are you here and didn't want to come home yet...so she didn't bring my 4 1/2 yr. old back home since she wanted to finish watching the movie and eating her pospsicle so then I was like to myself, okay I can breathe again lol.
Then we sat and talked with her and everyone there, who was mostly family who knew about me for a while longer. She also showed me a little tour of their house and we went in and looked around at my 4 1/2 yr. old's room and stuff too.
So, another part/different stage in the whole friendship/relationship with more openness in my adoption world has begun with one of the families...and we'll see where things go...and then how long/when I'll take this step with my 6 yr. old and her family...and then when I'll start seeing both my girls and having one on one time or what not...it's all a WILD ride...and I've been processing a lot since hanging out with them yesterday and coming thatclose to seeing my 4 1/2 yr old for what would have been the first time since I placed her...it's all really great and all...but it can also be a little overwhelming.
I'm beginning to get a glimpse and some more understanding of what all the people mean when they explain visits, their relationships etc., who have been in totally open adoptions from the beginning...and I know I still haven't seen either of my girls...yet...but I'm starting to get more of an idea of what it's like and what all the open adoption people mean when they talk about their visits and everything.
So, yep that was my weekend
. How was the weekend for everyone else?