Hi adoptmom2be, Sorry I haven't gotten back to you, I have had to try to pull back and relax a little. We have been licensed since April 1, 2009. Not very long at all, but everyday still feels like an eternity. I have gone so far as to call the house phone from work just to make sure the phone is working.
Silly I know, but I wanted to make sure.
In any case I gave her a long list of children at are available on our states waiting list and she did the research for us. All to find out that they all severe levels of care or where already matched.
Yet again I find myself leaving it all in God's hands and trusting in him. We waited 4 weeks before she called to find out if we would like her to submit our home study for a 9yo boy. Oh course I talked to my husband and we said YES, but it's been 2 weeks and no answer. We just had her submit it for a 7 yo girl that the CW was going to try to match by the end of this week. We didn't have any messages on the phone, so once again, I'll pray about it and leave it in God's hands. I sent our CW 3 more names to look at, as they are new to the waiting list. I know that she is doing everything she's suppose to, but as you well know it is very hard to wait. Just a few days ago I was talking to my husband about the matching phase. I guess I knew it, then again it really didn't occur to me, that the people that are matching the children to the potential parents are basing their decisions based on your home study and a picture. So basically it is all black and white, ink on a paper and colors in a photos. I just wish they could do some type of interview even if it was over the phone. So that they could put some personality behind the home study and picture. That's a job I wouldn't want to have.
This is why I said earlier, I had to pull back and relax. It is so easy to get on the internet and read about all the wonderful experiences that everyone else is having, but they have also had their waiting periods, so I'm trying to relax about it. I want to trust in God, for the family he has for us and like Yash and Barksum have said, it will happen in HIS perfect time. Patients is a virtue, what I personally need to do is strengthen myself in Jesus and leave this in His hands (that is much easier said than done, but I also know that when I try to do it my own way I mess things up
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PM me when ever you want to vent or have questions. I have a couple of friends that have gone through this before and it's been really great talking and asking them questions. I'll say a prayer for you and your soon to come family.