I'm in search of a birthparent's perspective. I found out in Jan that my birthmother was looking for me. I gave the necessary aproval to get everything rolling with the full support of my (a)parents. Last week, was my birthday, and mothers day, and after some very good advice from members on the forum I made the decision to write the first letter. Just a short thank you letter. Told her I was excited to share the story of my life with her, as much as she wanted to know, and to have a good mothers day.
I'm worried that the whole situation has become to much for my birthmother to deal with. There was a personal situation with my birthmother that came up shortly after she started the search that was preventing her from finding out that they had found me. Once they made contact she said she was going to try to get out a letter that week (in Febuary). She had told the couselor how excited she was, and that she had thought about me often. Since then there has been several attempts at contact by the adoption counselor, most have been unsuccessful though. I can't even begin to imagine the emotion that must be going on with her. I've tried to put myself in her shoes, but I can't even begin to fathom how she'd feel about everything.
I'll admit that at first I was fairly protective and worried that I was going to hurt my (a)parents, but after talking with them everything is great with them. After the inital 2-3 weeks of my brain turning to oatmeal after finding out and absorbing everything, I've actually become pretty excited about meeting this woman who gave me the gift of the life I've lived. Now I'm begining to get worried that this may never happen and that she for some reason has been scared off. My letter only went out last week (friday) so I'm hoping that it will be accepted well and that it will get the ball rolling. I'm attaching the letter so I can get some feedback hopefully.
Thank you all in advance.
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