[s00nerfanatic]

Thanks to everyone for their advice. It really does help to hear what others suggest/think. I told the a-dad through text that I was going to take the baby home with me for a few days after the hospital til I sign my rights away. He told the a-mom this morning and she wasn't happy. I can understand her insecurity over all of this, but I tried explaining that she will get my daughter for a life time and that she shouldn't worry so much about a few days with me. She thinks I am trying to cause problems and whatnot. I just want to spend time with my baby alone. I redid my birthplan (I wasn't going to have much contact at all with the baby after the birth). I put in there that I wanted to be the first to hold her. I also put that I would be breastfeeding. Now I'm scared that when she finds out, she will freak out. She knows that breastfeeding is a bonding thing. I think she thinks that i won't be able to sign my papers if I do that. I have a dr's appointment today. I feel torn on what to do. Not only is the a-mom in the same town, but she is also one of my closest friends (or was). Maybe I should have went with the first a-parents I chose even if they live half way across america.