[thanksgivingmom]

I think that's a really good point Kathy. (Re: everything being different either way).

For me, career was VERY difficult after placement because I didn't want to get off the couch. I just wanted to lay there zone out. I didn't think I deserved a good job, and then I felt guilty about doing something positive - like I was benefitting from placing Cupcake - and that didn't feel right AT ALL.

LIFE has become more difficult. In the same way as if I parented? Probably not, but believe me - it has.

I think it might actually be easier for me to have a successful relationship as a single Mom than as a first Mom! But I suppose I just haven't figured out how to navigate that path yet.....