Hello All.
I will make my story clear cut. I went through my pregnancy planning adoption. I met with several couples and chose one back in January of 2009. A week before baby was born, adoptive parents backed out.....I was stunned and confused and super scared. Anyways, there is SOOOO much to my story but just gonna give facts. During that week before birth I started wondering if it was meant for me to keep him. I was induced 2 weeks before due date due to pre-ecclampsia just making the whole thing more stressful. When I had him, I was totally confused but decided to bring him home on advice of family. Now he is 9 days old and my situation is sorta desperate. I am back at home at parents, had to quit my job.....am having to back out of a new lease at a new apartment I just signed with.....and am scared witless because my parents live 2 hours away from a city-----town size 3500....there are no job possibilities......everything is a mess and now I am thinking IHAVE TO ADOPT him out.....sadly I have already bonded with the little monkey and am suffering extreme guilt over wanting to place him. I cannot take care of him right now....and to not get into everything, I will not be able to really take care of him for a long time and its simply OVERWHELMING. I spent 9 months detached to bring this little baby home, now I am sorta attached but scared of placing him and scared of keepinghim.....
Any advice?? Also, is the legalalities any different once you have already given birth THEN u place for adoption?????I mean, isn't it unusual to place baby after you have taken him home from hopsital>>>?????
Any thoughts DESPERATELY needed and fast.....gotta make my mind up.
Thanks,
Kalee
