[kakuehl]

My Bson told me after we'd been in reunion for a while that he thought I'd made the right decision. (I wasn't sure whether to feel good or bad about that! LOL) I grew up with parents who loved me dearly but my mother was good at letting me know I wasn't exactly welcome. (I hadn't fit into their plans.) When I was pregnant with D, I wanted him to have parents who were definitely ready and wanting to parent, who would greet his entrance into their lives ONLY with joy. I have always loved my firstborn very much and it is incredibly good to have him in my life (36 years later).

As the others have said, recognize that adoption is a life sentence. It will change you in ways you won't anticipate. That said, life can still be good; just don't think that you will place and simply go on with your life.