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sleep deprivation can result in some of the worst behaviors I've ever seen in my dd. Try to do everything you can to clear that hurdle first.
Then, are there certain smells which would be comforting to her? Can you find familiar sounds? Recordings of an ocean, or a busy street or her native language? I'm not sure where she's from but familiar smells and sounds may trigger peaceful feelings for her.
My heart breaks for you and her and this just sounds like classic overwhelming grief. Perhaps she had a "comfort toy" or blanket that she was forced to leave behind? I know resources are so slim that some babies get sent home with nothing but the diaper they are wearing. Perhaps you can arrange to mail replacement toys/blankets in exchange for an unwashed familiar one being mailed to you?
Maybe the unfamiliar food has her stomach upset or acid reflux? Can you use "sweets" of some sort as a way to soothe her?
Was she used to being in a noisy room full of other babies? Would she benefit from sleeping inyour room, hearing snoring, sensing you are close?
I'm sure you've likely thought of all this already. I just want to throw out everything I would try.
My dd was home 2 years and was 6 years old, before she would even come close to sleeping through the night in her own room. It takes time to adjust, even for a kid who understands it all.
Try to take time for yourself, by having an older child or teen come play with her and entertain her while you get things done for you, around the house. Still be there to be the only one to meet her needs, but also get some space to yourself. Even an hour or 2 will work wonders.
Take the time to discharge all your frustration somehow, like by reading your favorite indulgent novel. Have someone come give you a pedicure or massage. Ask a friend to come cook dinner once a week....
Pamper yourself, while remaining close by and the primary caregiver. These things take time. For me, it was about 9 months of being a parent, before I really started to even come close to feeling like one. Don't pressure yourself, or feel guilty. Adopting a child is very similar to entering an arranged marriage with a virtual stranger, there is bound to be a period of adjustment at the very least!
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