[meadowroad]

so we have been home just about 4 weeks now with our 9 month old and though i see some positive strides, its very much 2 steps forward 1 step back...
my husband and i are completely overwhelmed with her.
(we also have a 2 1/2 yr old home grown daughter)...
we worked hard on getting her turned around with the 13 hour time difference and on some kind of schedule, which during the day she has started to take to it, nights are still completely inconsistent. but the past couple days she has been pretty much inconsolable. crying all the time, mad crying day and night...we don't know what to do...
thank god my husband and i are both already on meds to even our moods because we both would be off the deep end.
we are regretting this decision and trying so hard to find any feeling at all for this child, but right now she is SO high maintenance neither of us know what we need to do to even want to bond with her? its like she only has two settings happy or completely bat**** crazy...any thoughts would be sooooo appreciated~