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I don’t know Janey, I think some of us have lived harder lives than others. It’s so unfair! For the most part, most of the difficulties I’ve faced in my life have been of my own doing. The ramifications of some of my poor choices have been life-altering. However the difficult times have made me into the woman I am today, for better or for worse!
In an earlier post you mentioned the step father who was so abusive to you also came from a horrific childhood. What struck me is this: you broke the chain of abuse and in breaking the chain your life was forever changed. My father also came from a horrific childhood. He basically grew up on the streets of Detroit after his father who had been VP for Ford lost everything in the bottom of a bottle and his mother died of ovarian cancer before her 30th birthday. My father was beaten down both physically and emotionally. Yet, he hardly ever raised his voice to me and never raised his hand. He was loving and wonderful. He told me before he died that he was terrified of turning into his father. He was afraid to go so far as to spank us because he was afraid he’d turn into a monster. He was afraid to the day he died that he would transform into something ugly. My heart shattered when he told me.
Don’t ever be uncomfortable for being admired here. You’re words are of great value and importance.
Thanks.
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Paige
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